by Flordelyn Ondangan (36th Batch)
See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared. Exodus 23:20 (NIV)
Before I came to Korea, I prayed that I would only come here after I finish my first mission field assignment. But God didn’t answer my prayer and He sent me here even before I finished my first term. I’ve promised not to disappoint Him in any way so I said YES for Korea even though I was really scared. First of all, I’m not a teacher, I don’t know how to teach and I don’t know what to teach. I prayed so hard and asked Him, “Lord if you really want me to go there, please send an angel ahead of me and please prepare everything for me there.”
I never expected that I would have a Filipino missionary partner from the 35th Batch, my principal is also from the 1000 Missionary Movement (1st Batch) and my newly found Korean friends were really nice and kind to me. WOW! What an answered prayer! Everything was perfect. At first, I thought this is great. But day by day, little by little, things changed. It never turned out the way I expected.
I’ve experienced a lot of hardships and insults and I was even deprived of some of my rights. This is the hardest part of my missionary work so far. I had the greatest battle in this mission. This time I tried to question God. Why did you put me in this place? Why do I need to suffer like this? Why does it have to be me? Why did you leave me? I was crying so hard at that time and I wanted to go back home. I cried out to the Lord, “Please help me. I am so tired of being here.” And God heared my prayers and helped me.
Then I read the verse from Deuteronomy 28:13 and I said to myself I’m going to win in this fight because God is with me. I am not going to compromise my faith just to please them.
Right now I’m okay; we are fine. I realized why I am here; now I know my purpose. God sent me here for a big change for myself and for others. I learned to fight in His name. I consider the people here as the angels God sent me.
When things go wrong, all we need to do is trust and seek Him for help. I am no longer afraid of tomorrow because God is already there.